26.8.12

THAT'S JUST THE WAY IT IS, THINGS WILL NEVER BE THE SAME

Hello.

I have been absent for nearly a month I think... Woops.

I have a lot to tell. I dont really know where to begin.

After some long hard thinking and crying and more thinking and more crying, J and I split up.
It's very sad :(((

But I just think we are at different stages in life. He truly is the most wonderful person and I love him to death but I knew it was just not going to be. I could feel it in my bones.

I have no idea what will happen with our NYC/NYE trip. I'm hopeful I'll be able to use the flights later in the year. We'll see. Thats the first thing on my list - get to the travel agent! (If any one is a travel agent feel free to impart some knowledge - I would be so grateful!).

New Chapter!

Um. So. I have so many damn posts to catch up on. I have been spending a lot of time in Sydney at the moment as that is where my 2 closest friends are. I dont really have many friends left on the coast which is kind of scary! Everyones bailed overseas or to Sydney. Wah. So that's looking like the next step. I am really going to push to move to Syd. I go down there and DO NOT want to come home. I love it so much.

The biggest thing (besides all the above) that has happened in the last little while is I got my third tattoo.

It is on my ribs and is the biggest one I have and REALLY, REALLY, REALLY HURT. Hahaha.



Its sort of a tribute to my Granma. She is still alive haha. But she wrote this on my birthday card this year and as I've always wanted a tat related to her and because it was such a beautiful quote I decided I would get it done. I love it so much.

I think I might leave it at that for now. More updates soon. 
x

28 comments:

  1. So sorry to hear about the break up. :( I hope everything works out okay for you. Your new ink is beautiful (and brave!) Xx

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  2. :( kirryn... i'm sad to hear this, but you sound like you're handling it really maturely and well. also, nothing is forever, so perhaps where you two are right now might not always be that way. big hugs lovely girl xx

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    1. Thanks Court. I wanted to try and handle this well because the last thing I would ever want is to lose him from my life completely. I hope we will be friends! x

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  3. Ah, that hurt my heart a little! Big changes are always difficult, but things have a funny way of working out eventually. All the best lovely!x

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    1. Thank you lovely. Thats what I think too. Theres a reason for everything xxx

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  4. Again, I'm sorry :( You do sound like you're handling it really well though.
    YES Come move to Sydney!

    Also, beautiful tattoo. I've had my next one (also a tribute to my nan!) planned for YEARS but too chicken (and poor) to get it done. I also want it on my ribs - and you saying how much it hurt is not helping haha!

    Glad to see you posting again

    xx

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    1. Thanks Michaela. Sorry for mentioning the pain factor hahaha. Maybe you'll go in thinking its worse than it is? I was in so much denial and I think I got a nasty shock haha. Its always so worth the pain though :)

      I am SO ready for a Sydney move! x

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  5. Omg that sucks you split up with J! You guys were the cutest couple!!! But I totally understand theres always issues in every relationship and you need to decide whats best for both of you.
    But hey at least now you can think about moving to sydney :)

    And that is an amazing tattoo! So nice of you to dedicate it to your grandma!! :)

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    1. It sucks big time :( I know i'll miss him so much. But tis time for new adventures I feel! Thanks for the compliment, I'm really happy with it! x

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  6. BIG HUGS!!! Boo to breakups they suck, you guys were so cute. Move to sydney I say then we can have more contiki catchups. If you are ever down this way let me know and we can do a spot of window shopping in paddo :) that always cheers me up - along with a really good soy hot choc x x

    P.S love the tat - yes ribs hurt like a mofo but worth it in the end.

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    1. Yes Nic I really need to take you up on that :( I miss you! I wish I had remembered you have a rib tat so I could have asked you about pain beforehand hahaha. x

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    2. Next time you are in Sydney hit me up and we can do a shopping mish!! Miss you guys!

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  7. Long time follower over here but i've never commented... Sad to hear about you and J but it sounds like it was the best choice for you as from what you've said. It does get easier too believe me :)
    Your tatt looks amazing, I've been debating when/where to get my next one and this has given me a little push!

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    1. Thank you. I'm glad my tat has given you a little push... they really are worth the pain! xxx

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  8. Same as nataliemoo, long-time reader but first-time poster! So sorry to hear about your break-up. It is an extremely shit thing to happen, however it happens.
    Take care of yourself xxx

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    1. Thank you. That means alot. They are shit but they are indeed a part of life! x

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  9. really sorry to hear about your breakup lovely. sending you lots of hugs. i saw your new ink on instagram too, love it! :) xx

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  10. Sorry to hear about the split - but at least you made the decision knowing it wasn't right rather than letting the relationship die a slow death. Wow. OK, I am the worst at trying to sound nice.

    You should totally move to Sydney! I love the city. I live in the suburbs and can't stand it, I love love love coming into the CBD for work each day!

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    1. Hahaha I get what you mean Gill! It wasnt fair on either of us to drag it out. Just had to let it go and step into this next chapter of life!

      SO keen to move to Sydney you have no idea. I feel like the opportunities are endless down there!

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  11. Sorry to hear about you and J but it sounds like you have lots of new plans to keep you busy! I love living in Sydney, I think you should make the move.

    Laura
    www.whitewintersblog.com

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    1. I am definitely trying to keep busy - full steam ahead with new and exciting things! x

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  12. I'm a big believer in the saying everything happens for a reason but in saying that, it is hard to live by those same words when times are hard =( wishing you all the best on your move, K. Sydney's beautiful anyway, move!

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  13. Oh gosh, I'm so sorry to hear about the break up. It would suck right now, and nothing anybody can say will fix that. But it does and WILL get better!

    The tattoo is awesome! I have a little tattoo in the same area, and I couldn't stop squirming when I got it done! Totally worth it though - looks great!

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  14. I dunno how I missed this post in my feed :(
    But I'm thinking of you, I hope you're okay, and just keep your chin up :)

    Loving that tatt sick btw, looks fantastic. <3 xxx
    All my love.

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  15. oh hun I'm just catching up on blogs and only just saw this, I'm so so sorry about you and J :( it must have been so hard for you to make that decision that it wasn't going to work when you still love him.

    I think I remember reading on twitter that you made the decision to come to sydney, so YAY! you'll love it here and it's the perfect new beginning for you. hope you'll come to meets and stuff now!!

    LOVE the tat too, I want to get one but I'm sooo chicken :/

    big hugs hun xx

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